transitions.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

i think what im really scared of, is not to be able to sustain this kind of life style in the future. thats sad isn't it, you'll spend your adulthood in poverty ( to me poverty is being poorer than now ). i do believe this is part of graduation blues although i have graduated a year ago!

its already the end of july. creepy isn't it. 2 more weeks and i'll have to go back, and please people stop asking me when im going back cause i havent bought the ticket yet and will probably do so the last minute.

i should start saving money too, been spending so much money and i do think my mom will kill me if she finds out i have been spending so much. oh well. i don't know what to type, i just woke up and im darn sleepy! maybe i should go back sleep again and wake up at ... 10 pm? hahahahaha.,

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

well, i can't sleep.

all of a sudden, i started thinking what if i wake up blind. okay asides that, everyone should know that im coming back or rather leaving america for good.

so today i was packing up my stuff, throwing away tons of stuff. of course, i saw a lot of things that made me smile and sigh. i saw the first card that i gotten in america from my host parents, i saw the first card that was sent to me, i think its from esther. i saw the books that z gave me, i got 3 of em. i saw the mini cooper that ewen and est gave me. i saw the letters and stuff that was related to my prev relationship. tons of stuff, now i have to figure out how to pack everything into 3 luggage, and each not weight more than 23 kilograms.

this is the end isnt it? the end of my trip in america. i wonder if i would come back again to america, i wonder how would working life is gonna be like. according to my friends, you only get to go our on friday and saturday and sunday you would like to spend with your family. now i wonder how im gonna get a girlfriend that way, no wonder they always say" your future wife is probably in the company you work in".

im gonna miss the food here, the sky, the roads, the starbucks ( starbucks in singapore sucks ) and my friends in america.

don't blame me if i do become a hermit crap when i go back, i seriously don't have the mood to go out anymore. sighs.